After my post yesterday- and thanks for the reminder that it's just life- I was feeling awful sitting here at work. So, I left a little early and headed home. I got home about 2:30pm and the house was.....empty! Paul had taken the boys to the park to play with their new remote control trucks and so it was just me (and the dogs and cats). I quickly cemented my butt to the couch, well, actually my entire left side because I was laying down. Grabbed the nice fuzzy blanket off the back of the couch, the dogs hopped up to lay on me and I NAPPED! It was one of the nicest naps I think I have ever taken. It got rid of my headache, improved my other nagging blahs and was just generally wonderful. By the time they came home at 3pm I was back to normal and ready to play. That was the second time, since we moved into our house over 3 years ago that I have ever been in the house by myself. It's the longest, too. It was just so nice to have some time to sit in the house without all the hustle, bustle and noise of everyone there. Now, with my improved mood, it's time to set some overall goals for 2007. Not resolutions, because they never work, just general goals.
- I'm going to worry about only myself. As long as I know that I've got nothing to be ashamed of in my work ethic, I'm going to do my best to ignore those around me that don't have a similar approach to work. Life's just not fair but dwelling on it won't help anything.
- Practicing the "attitude of gratitude". I've tried this before and I just can't stick with it. When I start to get aggravated about something at work or home, I've got to try to think about the positives. My job can be interesting, it is working towards the good of people and it allows us the luxury of having a parent at home with our boys during these important early years. Also, my husband does an excellent job at home and he's a great father. Sometimes I just get too wrapped in small details, and in feeling sorry for myself, to remember that. I'm so incredibly lucky.
- Without being selfish I do have to make myself a priority. Before I get so aggravated about things that I carry around a big angry pit in my stomach for days, I'm going to stop and figure out what I need. Getting to the gym and staying in shape are #1 priority personally. I'm going to try to eat better, take good care of myself and allow myself some time for me even if it does mean asking for some help. By leaving the house for an hour, I'm not putting other things ahead of the kids, I'm balancing my life and I've been mostly out of balance since becoming a mom.
I think those are the 3 biggies. Other than that we'll just take things as they come. A whole 10 days off to be at home is going to just be heaven! I can usually keep up on reading while at home, but I might not do much posting. So, Merry Christmas (or Happy Holidays) and a Happy New Year to all. The year 2006 had a lot of excitement, 2007 promises to be even better.